I have made a big life-changing, evolutionary decision: I am leaving my job with public health. It was not an easy one. It isn’t because I don’t love my job greatly; because I do. In fact, I feel like the queen of the jungle, leaving her subjects. It’s not easy to let go.
My reasons for leaving have nothing to do with the job itself, but have everything to do with my own personal life situation which requires me to migrate from one county to another in Southern California, in order to follow my primal instincts to be closer to family. It is an ice age era, and in order for my family to survive I need to migrate. I have decided long ago that I never want to live with any regrets in life. And taking care of my family is number one priority, as it should be perhaps for all of us mammals. After all, that’s what life is really about – protecting your own, isn’t it?
But I still cannot help but think about how much I will miss my patients whom I’ve been taking care of for the past three years. My experience in public health has been truly irreplaceable, and probably one of the best in my mammalian career. One that I will never forget.
For this reason, I thought it may be a good idea to take this opportunity to reflect on my previous three years here in the public health territory, and chronicle the reasons why I am so grateful that I chose a career in public health:
Survival of the Fittest. You’ll never lose your skills. It’s an ideal job to move into, especially straight out of residency. Why? Because I was able to practice every facet of family medicine – from taking care of numerous children, practicing low-risk prenatal care, serving very sick patients with chronic disease, performing minor surgeries, and everything else in between. You will be taking care of patients with diminished access to care, and you are truly “it” for many of them. In other systems, you may be able to refer out for many conditions; in public health referring out is not often so easy. Therefore, you learn to really tease out those wonderful skills you learned in residency, and develop them even further. You will become a better diagnostician, with less reliability on tests and technology. In public health, you are the epitome of the family physician; there are no specialists in the territory. It’s just you. That’s it.
My Encounters with Rare Species in Danger of Extinction: What I have seen in my public health clinic, I have never came across prior in my life as a physician. I never know what will appear behind that exam room door: an ill patient knocking on death’s door with no prior medical care or health insurance, full-blown syphilis in pregnancy, large breast lump the size of a grapefruit that you can literally spot across the room, patients seizing in the lobby, end-stage rheumatoid arthritis in a patient without prior care, numerous involuntary psychiatric hospitalizations, child-abuse cases you would cringe at the mere thought of, and infectious diseases I’ve had the unfortunate job of diagnosing. All those rare cases we read about in the books but never really see in reality, well I actually got to see some of them. Every day was an interesting one. You just don’t get to see such cases in other settings very often.
I Am the Queen of Jungle. You may be working as the only physician, or with a select few others or mid-levels. No one will be telling you how to practice. You are your own boss on a day-to-day basis. You are typically at the top of the hierarchy in your clinic. The staff will be coming to you for guidance because you are the decision-maker. You rule the kingdom. But the truly best part: you won’t have to worry about the financial details of running your own practice.
My Subjects Worship the Lioness Ground I Walk on: This is perhaps the best reason to join public health. These humble patients are generally so very grateful for the care you provide them, and thank you on a daily basis. Some end up waiting for the providers for up to two or even three hours, and they do not get angry or complain. They are just grateful to be seen. They may not have health insurance, and they cannot afford to be seen anywhere else. You are often all they have in this big jungle of a world. You’ll love these patients, and they will love you back.
Community medicine is one of the most rewarding experiences in my life. I know that I will never have this experience anywhere else. And I have truly become a better physician because of it.
But, like in any ice age era, we all need to thaw out, migrate and evolve sometime I suppose.
Now, if it were only as easy and affordable to settle into a new home in Southern California as it was in those days...

8 comments:
Thank you for sharing this. It is a powerful thing to discuss why and how this service work was important to you. It is also moving to know that you loved your patients. I can tell you beyond a shadow of a doubt that YOUR PATIENTS LOVED YOU.
I will tell you THANK YOU - THANK YOU SO MUCH from every patient that you touched. Even the ones who never said it. Some were not taught to say it. Some thought you didn't need to hear it. Some were too sick.
You do need to follow your guts - go where YOU need to be. I am touched by this post. Moved.
xx
Melissa
Best to you as you move forward.
To start off with...a VERY impressive blog site. Most importantly..a VERY heartfelt entry that allows us, the reader, to enter your (somewhat personal) professional life.
The decisions we make, the decisions we stand by and yes, the decisions we, at times, are the most poignant to share in this very medium.
I applaud your decision and respect you for your 'personal' entry, and willingness to share with us, your readers. Think of it this way:
Someone is SURE to learn from you!
Cheers!
Very nice post. Understand completely, as I decided twenty years ago to leave private psychiatric practice and do public mental health. Have never looked back. It's a great kind of work to do where you actually feel like you can help people.
Thanks for sharing this with us. I wish you much luck, peace and harmony as you make this change!
Please forgive my utterly selfish question, but you will continue blogging won't you? :)
Thank you for your very kind sentiments Dr. Snit, Rlbates, SanDiegoNavyDoc, Greg, and Leslie. I greatly appreciate your support and kind words.
Leslie, yes, i'm going to try my hardest to continue blogging :) I am touched you asked! Thank you :)
Such a good post. It is actually a guidance to me since I just come to public health.
You are a great person. No matter what you are going. You will make a difference. Best wishes to you.
Thank you, Minqi! You just made my day :)
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